Today I’d like to talk about a personality I’m painfully aware of … the Intelligent Idiot. I am one of these people. Basically, what you have in an Intelligent Idiot is a person who can comprehend and put together words in a coherent, even effective, fashion, without really understanding the content of those words. Such …

Lately I’ve become interested in religious subjects again, particularly as a source of comfort to my troubled mind. It doesn’t even particularly have to be any specific religion, just some kind of belief system. Anyway, I started researching the beliefs of my father yesterday — Pentecostalism, Charismatic, the origins of all that, Azusa street, glossolalia, …

Pretty weird dream a couple of nights ago. I dreamt there was something wrong with my prostate. I don’t know specifically what it was, but for some reason in order to keep it going I had to remove it from my body, so suddenly I was walking around with my prostate in my hand. It …

I graduated High School in 199X in a class of 5 other students. It wasn’t hard to be the best student among them. Given my natural aptitude at test-taking I had aced most all coursework I had been presented with up to that point, and I left fairly confident that I would be just as …

Lately I’ve been suffering. I’ve been sleeping 14-16 hours a day, with no desire to do anything else with my time. I’ve been feeling that everything I do or possibly could do is a giant waste, pointless, and without meaning. On top of that, when I am awake I feel strung out, weak, groggy and …

Well, this entry will be hard to write. It’s the tale of my very first severe crush, which happened my senior year of High School. It firmly cemented my Outsider status in my mind, exposed my vulnerable emotions which were crushed completely, and on top of all that, makes me look even more pathetic. First, …