Well, my excessive sleeping has returned, despite the fact that I’m back on the Teva manufactured generic Lamictal. I feel like nothing is worth doing, and I don’t find anything enjoyable. I don’t want to be conscious. I’m not tired … I just feel like I’d rather be asleep than face the mood I’m in. So I sleep 12-14 hours a day.
I let extremely minor things pull me into a funk, like whether or not I can get to the Library that day, or whether or not I’ve missed some kind of secret item in the RPG I’m playing. I let things like this ruin my whole day — I dwell on them, they dominate my thoughts. I don’t understand it.
So I started reading about Lamictal online and “lack of motivation” is a very common complaint. People expressing nearly identical feelings to the ones I have — nothing is worth it, everything is pointless, I don’t care… Maybe my response to the Lamictal has entered a “new phase.” All I know is it’s very unpleasant to live like this.
I wish I could go back to where I was a few weeks ago: active, engaged in my hobbies, sleeping 8 hours per night with sometimes an hour or so nap during the afternoon. I have no idea how to get back there. I guess I’ll have to talk to my “P-Doc” about it. Up until this point I’ve described these feelings as “depression,” and her response… is to up the Lamictal dosage. Maybe that’s the problem!
I don’t know. I have yet to fill my Risperdal prescription so I’m still on the Dr. Reddy’s for that. Maybe there’s some kind of problem with it, or some kind of interaction with the Lamictal. Hopefully I’ll be back to my (relatively) energetic self when I get the Teva Risperdal. We’ll see…